Dont Understand

Today upload our pictures to my facebook...forgot to delete the file in computer that brother found it...mother asked me to delete it at once in avoiding brother would be angry...i felt very hurtbreak on that time...why i should do these and tolerate on everything for my brother??? there should be i angry when saw these pictures rather than my brother!!! i should be more sad than my brother when seeing this photos, but why i should be torelated to him on these my sad things whereas i should be hiddening my sadness and make my brother happy...why??? i felt so sad and hetred on my brother and even on my mother...why she listen to brother everytime..but not me...i would be ignored everytime...everyone care about his feeling, then how about my feeling???who is going to care of me???June Ping, even you would not care of my feeling why i would write the "letter" to you...dont you think i would be very happy to speak out these words in the letter to hurt you??!! i didnt want to do these on you but i didnt want to lies on you because i really love on you, why dont u understand me??? nevertheless, you even hurt me one times by one times after that...do you know, i felt so suffered when hidden the feeling that lost of you, the pressure of my family and my study...i dont know how to manage these feelings right...i just feeling so suffered than before now...my family wont understand me...even you also ignored me...and now i felt so stressed on studying...in the past, you would be my side and encouraged me but now...i really felt helpless and lonely...i felt very unhappy to go on my life...everybody dont understand me...