New leaf new life

Back to the blogger again, dont know why, wanna on the blogger suddenly but not before,maybe wanna seeing back how i did feel on your love before, i found that i was so sincerely taking out my heart on hoping ur back and always did many everybody felt that stupid thingson my life, unhappy everyday, drank many cups of coffee without sugar everyday once i thought of you, thought of how to attract you again maybe hidden my sad but every laughing features when met you intentionally or unintentionally, crying every nite, thinking now, i went through alot experiences on love???? i also have no idea but i learned that should be thinking repeatedly and heavily on deciding one thing from right or wrong, should or shouldnt, and importantly its consequences, am i right? if i was not that standing on one concept that trust true love had in the world, might i wont be telling this "stupid" reason to decide broke up with you...that only can i blame on myself too stubborn. on this blogger today, i have decided to "close file" these love on my diary, on my life, i wouldnt think how to attract you, i wouldnt think of you much than before, i wouldnt think how have i an opportunity to get you back on my side oneday because i felt very tired of do these again and again but never have response, you might be think i dont have there's so call "holding", but i dun want stop there longer and longer again, i want to move on my life still, and importantly, i want to go on my life with happiness and happiness than everyone on everyday, i want to treat myself and my family to the BEST. But if there have oneday, i still would be turning back and hold back your hand, there is still yet my hope also.