The "Zero" of the day

When the first class ( media studies) started, lecturer was calling name by name to ask to collect the assignment 1 of the media studies..the feelling of feared had arised that time until the name to be called...i got the pass grade on the paper...i felt abit relaxed that moment..met ian chua with happy mood in cafeteria at afternoon..i was told to be collected the another assignment, film studies..he told me that he just got 11/20 marks on the paper with down mood..i thought of how mine if he got such marks only??? what will i get then??i felt so worried that time, so i decided to get the result from lecturer...i prayed that time as just expected get a pass grade also...but unluckily, i get 0/20 marks,fail...the lecturer asked me to read through his comment that he wrote on the paper then look for him again tomorrow...i felt nothing that time and just hold the paper went back the my study place...at that moment, i cried in front of my friends...they asked me to try persuading lecturer give at least mark to me...but will it be possible?? after crying, my mood calm more and thought of this is pass over already...can not be changed anymore again..i understand one thing that time, no matter how the road though ahead, i have to face it in appropriated way..i can not escape and even blame on others...i admitted that is because of me not hardworking to do this assignment..so the final advise that given to me is to be hard and hard more on doing the 2nd assignment ahead...i know to be sad, depress is useless to be changed the fact again...there is useless to be like that, so why dont i am to be happy to go on my life???